Lately the question has been in my head, Why do bad things happen to good people? And if I could give you a theological answer, I would tell you that there is no such thing that exists as a good person, for all have sinned. But there are sometimes where you question certain things. Do you know every half hour some teenager committed suicide and in general, every 40 seconds someone attempts or commits suicide. This world, as you can see, is so broken and every where you look there is someone that is hurting.
In today's world, I think we are harder on ourselves then people are on us. We get so lost in the lies the devil tells us, that it's all our fault, we are not worth anything, and anything that he can tells us to pull us down he will. It's so easy to get lost in the sea of this world, that sometimes we just become so numb from everything that life has handed us. When need to be aware of this for in 1 Peter 5:8 it says, "Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour."
When you look at the statistics above, you might think, well, Satan obviously winning! But you would be wrong because we need to remember that Jesus already defeated death. The battle is won through Him! He's always with us and it's never too late to run back in His arms! When you have these days of doubt just remember that you are worth more then you could ever know! You are royalty! The most beautiful thing, created in the image of the God who made the stars, the mountains, the oceans, the sunrises and the sunsets!
I meant to post this earlier, but now is okay. We all recently just celebrated Easter, every Easter, I have a moment of just awe of how amazing Jesus really is! I still wondered how he could die for my sins and find me worthy enough to die for me, but not only that but to choose me and then use me to proclaim His name. I saw this video and i think it sums up just how great He is!
Watching that video and then thinking that this king is my king leaves me in awe! But not only the He died the most humiliating, cruel death in all of history so that we could live and not only just live, but to live to the fullest! Thank you Jesus! You are so wonderful!
So every time your feeling down and ready to give up, remember there is someone that loves with a love with that can complete every person who accepts it! And He is the King of kings, the Lord of all lords! And He got whipped, spat on, his beard pulled out, and a crown seep into His skull for you!
You know how you have one of those days where you are trying to serve God and Satan comes along to remind you of your past. Everything you have done wrong, every mean thing you have done and said, every thought that has been through your mind, and he brings you to a level that you don't feel worthy to even be saved by Jesus, because your past is too dirty.
Well, I am having one of those days, where I want to serve God with all my being and everything is being thrown at me at once, It kinda reminds me of what my grandma told me, "Satan is only gonna attack you if he finds you a threat!"I have to remind myself of that, more then I should. But then I also come to a thought when these things do come, why do we hide, and treat grace as if it were cheap and that our sins shrinks it, when in all actuality it grows grace all that more, when we come into repentance. God had known already that we were going to commit that sin and He still sent His only Son to die on the cross. So when we become believers in Christ, shouldn't we see that we our no longer in the bondage of sin, we are free! Free! Why aren't we acting like it and telling everyone we know that we are FREE!
Roman 8:1-4says, "Therefore, there is now NO condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you FREE from the law of sin and death. For what the law was powerless to do because it was weakened by the flesh, God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh to be a sin offering.And so he condemned sin in the flesh, in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fully met
in us, who do not live according to the flesh but according to the
Spirit."
I feel so blessed! Oh how God loves me and how He helps in me, no matter where I am in life, I feel Him with me, right by my side. I heard this song tonight, and it said every word that I was feeling tonight, so that is what I am gonna put on my blog and just leave it to that!
My disability is so many things that no one will understand unless they have one. I remember as a kid I felt trapped inside of a body that no one could fix, as I got disgusted looks, laughing and pointing, mocking. every time I drooled I would try to cover it up before anyone saw and then if they did see something, I try to avoid looking at them because I even was disgusted with myself.
It's frustrating when you want to look normal, but your not, you want to sound normal but you don't and no matter what you do you will always have these flaws, maybe when I am old and gray I will understand fully why God made me this way and there are some days where I can see glips of it! But there are other days that I just wish that I could be without a disability.
I know God has a plan for me, maybe its to show ignorant people and open their eyes of what they can't see. I just so glad my God is a God, who is in love with the weak and let's them lead the strong because He knows that the weak know that they can't do it themselves, they need Him!
I AM WEAK, I HAVE CEREBRAL PALSY, I DROOL, AND LET'S FACE IT, I TALK WEIRD, AND I WRITE FUNNY! I AM NOT A BEAUTY QUEEN, I AM NOT PERFECT, I HAVE FLAWS! AND SOMETIMES I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY, BUT IN THE MIST OF ALL OF IT, I SEE GOD IS WORKING AND IF I COULD SAY SOMETHING TO MY DISABILITY, I WOULD SAY THIS, THERE ARE SOME DAYS THAT I HATE YOU, I HATE THE SLOWNESS AND SHAKINESS OF MY HANDS! BUT EVEN IN THESE DAYS, I KNOW MY GOD IS GREATER THAN YOU AND HE HAS A PLAN FOR ME AND SOMEHOW YOU BRING HIM GLORY MORE THAN I EVER COULD, SO I THANK YOU BECAUSE THAT'S ALL I WILL EVER WANT IS TO BRING MY SAVIOR GLORY!
.....Therefore, in order
to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a
messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I PLEADED with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My GRACE is SUFFICIENT for you, for MY POWER is made PERFECT IN WEAKNESS.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my WEAKNESSES, so that CHRIST'S POWER may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I DELIGHT in WEAKNESSES, in INSULTS, in HARDSHIPS, in PERSECUTIONS, in DIFFICULTIES. FOR WHEN I AM WEAK THEN I AM STRONG!!! 2 Corinthians 12:7-12
Lately, I have been thinking if there is a soul mate (so you called it) for everyone. And then you wonder if there is, and then you wonder who and when and how? You bring all these questions to your mind. I know God has made us to be in community. I get in this mode of trying to rush through this world and then God
reminds me to step back, take a breath and enjoy! I
catch myself sometimes want to find that special someone who will
accepted me for me and I can have special moments with, laugh with, talk
to, and will become my best friend. I hope the someday a meet that
special man that will one day become my husband.
As a single person, society has made singleness a bad thing, that you need that other person to be completely fulfilled. But maybe singleness is not so bad, it less distractions, you can see clearer. You have more time on your hands.Shouldn't we take advantage of every stage of our lives? If you single, enjoy it! If your married, Enjoy it! If you are a brand new parent, enjoy it! Why is this world in such a rush all time?
1 Corinthians 7:32-35 says, "I want you to be free from anxieties. The unmarried man is anxious about
the things of the Lord, how to please the Lord. But the married man is
anxious about worldly things, how to please his wife, and his interests
are divided. And the unmarried or betrothed woman is anxious about the
things of the Lord, how to be holy in body and spirit. But the married
woman is anxious about worldly things, how to please her husband. I say
this for your own benefit, not to lay any restraint upon you, but to
promote good order and to secure your undivided devotion to the Lord.?
I am just going to enjoy my singleness until that day when I meet that man! I am take this
opportunity and have this personal relationship with Jesus and get as close as I can with Him, so
when that day does come, I will be ready for my future husband. I don't want the
worldly love, I want a love where God is the center of it because that's
true love! I want love not lust! I know this may take longer then it
could normally be, but I rather wait and have a relationship that lasts
then to rush and have a relationship end short because we didn't wait! I
don't want to based my relationship on feelings, I want to based it on
God! I want to love the way that God has called me to love not the way
the world loves.
Have you been ever curious on what God has hold for your future, Who are you to marry, what job to get, how many kids will you have? I have! And I have come to the conclusion that maybe God doesn't want me to worry about that for He has those things in His hands, but to worry about what is now, the present and how to make a difference in this world now . So many time I have told myself, "oh, I will make a difference after college. But then God reminds me that, I don't know when my last breath is and the time is not later, its now! Everyday I breathe should be involved with changing or effecting someone's life in a positive way!
I never really realized how much impacted I have, until God brings someone or something that reminds me that I am! I do have a voice in this huge world! Especially with God by my side, I am unstoppable! We forget that! In 2 Timothy 1:7-12 says, "For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline. So do not be ashamed of the testimony about our Lord or of me his
prisoner. Rather, join with me in suffering for the gospel, by the power
of God. He has saved us
and called us to a holy life not because of anything we have done but
because of his own purpose and grace. This grace was given us in Christ
Jesus before the beginning of time,
but it has now been revealed through the appearing of our Savior,
Christ Jesus, who has destroyed death and has brought life and
immortality to light through the gospel. And of this gospel I was appointed a herald and an apostle and a teacher.
That is why I am suffering as I am. Yet this is no cause for shame,
because I know whom I have believed, and am convinced that he is able to
guard what I have entrusted to him until that day.
